Take my advice and stop hoping, wanting, and wishing. Just be an observer with zero expectations then every good thing that happens becomes a pleasant surprise.
Expect no winning record until they have one. Expect no playoffs until they are actually in the playoffs. Expect no playoff success until they have playoff success.
I don't hurt anymore, because they have not earned that type of faith from me to risk being hurt. Again, for my own mental health, I have zero expectations.